Dear Santa,

Every year, the boys write letters to Santa.

This one is from Jaden (8)...

(Dear Santa, This Christmas I would like an iPod touch, an iPod nano, an iPad, a cure to diabetes, 5 alaska air tikets for Glendale, Arizona 5 tikets to the BCS title game, all the creepy storys by David Lubar, a bag of silly bandz, a hex bug beetle, and 2 hex bug nanos, and a BCS title game football. Sencerly, Jaden)

This one is from Bryce (5-T1)...

(Dear Santa I wodd like a Bag of Silly Bands and a cure to Diabetes and a Hex Bug Beetle . Bryce)

Did you catch the request for a CURE TO DIABETES? Yes, we ALL want that one!!! My oldest (nonD) son put that on his list first, with NO prompts from anyone else.

Oh if it was only that easy to just BELIEVE. Think if we all write a letter to Santa asking for a cure, he will help? Maybe if we all close our eyes and believe as hard as we can?

Maybe the big man will be able to deliver the idea or the tools to a special scientist who can bring that cure to reality. I BELIEVE it is out there, I BELIEVE someday it won't just be mice getting cured but our special kiddos. I HOPE that someday is soon. I HOPE for a Christmas without diabetes.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Wishing you happiness and good numbers :-)

overwhelmed and tired

***warning-rambling unhappy post***

This time of year has always been stressful for me. Not that I am a bah-humbug but the chaos of everyday life is amplified a hundred times during the holidays. When the house is a mess, the last thing I want up is a ton of decorations. I never like shopping then add crowds of people and the stress of having to buy for other people and it is just unbearable. And the weather sucks! At a time when everyone is singing carols and happy as can be, I am in a funk. I feel like my life is spinning out of control and I can't get a handle on anything. Everything I do is subpar. Not one thing can I be proud of, not one thing I do well. Everything and everyone suffers. My house is a mess, my kids are obnoxious, I never know what to make for dinner, I can't fit in my clothes, we've had more pay cuts, my 2 year old keeps pooping in his pants (and thinks its funny), I never get any sleep, and Bryce's numbers eternally suck. Despite all this, I do have a lot to be happy for...I am just not seeing it right now. I am overwhelmed and tired.

sorry, just had to get it out....now to put that aside and take care of the boys and do something fun today!!

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JDRF Walk Awards 2010

Tuesday night was our JDRF Walk Awards.

This year's Walk to Cure Diabetes in Portland, Oregon brought in over $314,000

'Bryce's Team: Wipeout Diabetes' raised $6,727 of that.

Bryce received a couple awards including the Golden Sneaker Award

(fundraising over $1000)

and the team won the Silver Achievement Award

(fundraising over $5000, I think)

Bryce is very proud of his awards. He can't stop admiring them and comparing them to the awards he received last year. He shows them off and tells whoever will listen all about the Walk and finding a cure for diabetes.

Here are some pictures from the evening...

Big Bro and Lil Bro went up with Bryce to get his award.

receiving his award

silliness with the Golden Sneaker Award

Bryce and his Walk Award

Our family

Bryce's Team: Wipeout Diabetes Silver Achievement Award

My boys and G (also T1 on our team)

The Golden Sneaker

Our Awards

Hoping this brings us closer to a cure!!!!

can't ignore Dex

And tonight he wants ALL our attention!!!

We have been battling highs all day despite many corrections. So hearing double beeps as we went to bed (high or double rise) we were not happy. Dex said 374, really 246 (calibrate)

Hour later, triple beep (low or double fall)...ok, so the insulin decides to finally kick in after midnight...nice! Nope, Dex says 82, really 179 (calibrate) Go to sleep. Maybe half hour later quadruple beep (wtf?) Dex now says 36, really 160. We are really frustrated now! Go back to bed....more beeps!!! '???'....of course Dex can't tell what is going on. More beeps... 'sensor error 1'. Fine, so Dex is not going to cooperate tonight...going to bed. More beeps!!! 'sensor error 0' Whatever!! I give up! But Dex doesn't...more beeps! "YES, I KNOW THERE IS A SENSOR ERROR....SHUT UP!!!" Hubby finally takes Dex and puts him in the farthest room. Seriously! Hope I can actually sleep now.

And to think I wanted Dex so that we could sleep more and test less...right!!!